Chapter 11
Scotland and England, Early Spring
For fifteen years I've wanted to come to this country, to this England.
For months I've wanted to hear music. For days I've wanted to see
shows, eat at tables, and talk to English-speaking men and women.
Now I've come to England. I've heard some music, seen some plays,
been to dances, eaten at tables, conversed in English. In fact I've tried
desperately to have a good time. And I have failed miserably. I have
no heart for it-now that I've got it. I've no mind for it. it isn't the
thing or they are not the things that satisfy my desires-the interest
of my heart and mind. What I want is what I left in the mountains of
Italy-satisfaction of something accomplished, something concrete,
something real, something to eat up this tremendous desire to get on
with the business of exterminating Germans.
For months I've wanted to hear music. For days I've wanted to see
shows, eat at tables, and talk to English-speaking men and women.
Now I've come to England. I've heard some music, seen some plays,
been to dances, eaten at tables, conversed in English. In fact I've tried
desperately to have a good time. And I have failed miserably. I have
no heart for it-now that I've got it. I've no mind for it. it isn't the
thing or they are not the things that satisfy my desires-the interest
of my heart and mind. What I want is what I left in the mountains of
Italy-satisfaction of something accomplished, something concrete,
something real, something to eat up this tremendous desire to get on
with the business of exterminating Germans.
So I wrote in a letter from Leicester, England, February 21,1944.
Contentment was no one's lot; then, perhaps it never is. Certainly
there was much to give me joy, if I just didn't have to return to military
life. I came to England by jeep from the north. We ferried the
North Channel into what I know now is the Firth of Clyde. We
probably went through Stranraer and stayed overnight in Dumfries.
We had a day and a night in Scotland. From our British barracks
in the evening I hurried into whatever city it was to mingle
with civilians, British soldiers, Land Girls, and the small number of
American soldiers from our advance party.
there was much to give me joy, if I just didn't have to return to military
life. I came to England by jeep from the north. We ferried the
North Channel into what I know now is the Firth of Clyde. We
probably went through Stranraer and stayed overnight in Dumfries.
We had a day and a night in Scotland. From our British barracks
in the evening I hurried into whatever city it was to mingle
with civilians, British soldiers, Land Girls, and the small number of
American soldiers from our advance party.
Moving from North Ireland through Scotland to Leicester in
the Midlands was like traveling back through one's reading. Little
did I know of North Irish literature, but some I knew of Scotland.
The country I sped through, whether lowlands, highlands, or
moors, suggested those literary landscapes I had read about since
childhood, Conversation in the jeep was certainly negligible, so that
my mind ran off to the songs of Burns, the castles and abbeys of
the Midlands was like traveling back through one's reading. Little
did I know of North Irish literature, but some I knew of Scotland.
The country I sped through, whether lowlands, highlands, or
moors, suggested those literary landscapes I had read about since
childhood, Conversation in the jeep was certainly negligible, so that
my mind ran off to the songs of Burns, the castles and abbeys of
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